So Good

Some people ask me if it is hard to look at pictures of Gord. I love looking at pictures of Gord. The first thought that always enters my mind is that ...he was so good to me. He was so good to the kids. He really had a natural disposition towards goodness.

Gord and I were in conversation pretty much every minute we were together. There were also comfortable silences. Especially Sunday afternoons making the trip home from the cabin. But more often than not, we were talking. Often about people and relationships. I always admired Gords attitude towards people and relationships. I still aspire to be more like him.

First of all, he truly believed in peoples goodness. He often said things like, " Don't  you think most people are naturally good and want to be good."

I haven't met many people in my life who live by that attitude. 

I'm starting to improve in this area, but I've often concerned myself with how others perceive me. I also find myself sensitive to others changes in behavior, body language, tone, choice of words. Gord on the other hand interpreted the world quite differently. I can remember him saying, " I don't worry about what others think about me, because generally speaking I believe I'm a good person, and what others may think doesn't change that."

Gord also had the power to choose to not pick up on body language, tone and subtlety.  I can hear him saying, " If someone has a problem with me, they are going to have to tell exactly what I'm doing wrong, if they can't tell me directly, then it must not be that important."

On top of that, I've been present when he has been criticized, after the fact I would ask it bothered him and we would say," They can think what ever they want, I'm not threatened by others opinions." ( refer to first quote.)

I knew Gord for 9 years. In those nine years, I never knew anyone that didn't like Gord. He was so easy to be around and so easy to love. He was so comfortable with who he was he gave others permission to be themselves too.

I feel so grateful to have had to opportunity to have known such an amazing man and fortunate enough to be so well loved.

I love you and miss you Gord. I will carry you in my heart forever.